To read this in English you will need to put the link through Google Translate. It was posted to VK.com by a Russian VDV soldier named Pavel Filatyev. I have not read it all because it is nearly book-length. This is Filateyev's personal perspective on the Ukraine war. It is reminiscent of the book Forgotten Soldier by Guy Sajer who was conscripted to fight with the with the Wehrmacht in WWII on the eastern front fro 1942-45.
Filatyev is very candid aout the lies that the Russian army believed and what he thought the 'special military operation ' was about. For historians (@titan) and those who are interested inthe grunt level view of the Russian forces, it's worth scanning. Filatyev is pro-Russian but he's now very much anti-war and anti-Putin and had no respect for the Russian military chain of ommand/corruption. If his disaffection is typical of the VDV, to say nothing of the conscripted regular forces, the Russian military has no foundation left.
He talks about being sent into the war without even a functonal sleeping bag and nearly freezing and the horrible state of the RF equipment. The pat that I found most fascinating (so far as I ave read) was his account of interacting with te nurses at the hospital to which he had been evacuated after two months of seclusion in the combat zone from all news of the outside world. He realized that the RF soldiers have no idea what's happening outside their local AO and Russians at home, even in the army hospitals treating the wounded, have no idea of what's really happening in the fight or who they are fighting.
Filatyev was surprised to find no Russian speakers or people with Russian surnames in the LH and DH breakaways regions that had ever suffered persecution by the Ukrainians let alone the supposed Nazis that he was told were controlling Ukraine.
https://alternatewars.com/Ukraine2022/ZOV.htm 
