This Sunday's gospel had me thinking... (Mt 20: 1-16a)
'Summon the laborers and give them their pay,beginning with the last and ending with the first.'When those who had started about five o'clock came,each received the usual daily wage.So when the first came, they thought that they would receive more,but each of them also got the usual wage.And on receiving it they grumbled against the landowner, saying,'These last ones worked only one hour,and you have made them equal to us,who bore the day's burden and the heat.'He said to one of them in reply,'My friend, I am not cheating you.Did you not agree with me for the usual daily wage?Take what is yours and go.What if I wish to give this last one the same as you?Or am I not free to do as I wish with my own money?Are you envious because I am generous?'Thus, the last will be first, and the first will be last."+++Trying to compare the commandment against adultery to one's sexual orientation is apples to oranges. However, I believe that some here would think it really is just a matter of self control. This way of thinking ignores something deeper and more profound (in my opinion).
Are we are missing the fact that these gay men had never felt at home in God's house given their sexual orientation? As they witnessed, they tried desperately to "
pray the gay away" only to come to the understanding that this was who they are- homosexual persons. As has already been
researched, there is no gay gene. In fact the "
psychological genesis remains largely unexplained" (CCC 2357).
I bring up the gospel parable of the workers in the vineyard, because it sheds light on the broader mercy God has for all mankind. He sees beyond the limits of time, circumstance, and, I would add, sexual orientation; God sees how things should have been all along had original sin not entered the world. So when it came to paying the workers he paid them what should have been (a daily wage) instead of what they did (an hour). Leave it to God to make whole what was lacking before.
It would seem that self mastery, is the only way. Gay persons wishing to live in a committed relationship as these two men have, raise adopted children, live productive lives, and seek to worship God in church - is like cheating! Not allowed.
I believe it is because we have lumped a person's sexual orientation in with other dishonorable passions (adultery, prostitution, rape, etc.) all of which have a complementary virtue to each vice. Chastity is the virtue the Church promotes as the way for people who are homosexual. Imagine loving someone exclusively but are unable to physically act on this feeling, this passion. St. Paul writes (1 Cor 7:9) "
But if they cannot control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion." Only if you are heterosexual it would seem.
As I read and contemplate this condition (homosexual), I don't feel the same as some here do about the best way being only self mastery through the virtue of chastity. I believe it is that and more. For heterosexual persons called to the vocation of marriage- the path is straight forward, all spelled out. Full sacramental life in the church and holy matrimony. For homosexual persons called to an exclusive loving and committed relationship? Only path is to practice self control and seek Christian perfection through the virtues -alone.
What we are telling gay people is that the way they choose to love each other is sinful. I wonder sometimes if men marrying a woman instead of "burning with passion" is any better?