I just wanted to
share something my wife sent me this morning. She knows how much I've been struggling with this, especially today since I realized that it was exactly one week ago that Will woke up for the last time on this earth.
The part that really stuck out was the poem. It was beautiful and has become my prayer in this darkness:
Quote:
Lord, would you speak "let there be light" in me.
It's the prayer of everyone who's been hurt by disappointment
When life hits and gave us way more than expected
It's the cry of the overwhelmed heart; the scream of a tired soul
The aching of desperation; fallen deeper into a bottomless hole
But you understand my darkness, you get the struggle of my inside
So I lift up my eyes asking you to hear my cry
You hover over my chaos ready to create with just one word
Speak Holy Spirit; I need hope in my hurt
Lord would you speak...
It's the prayer of everyone who feels forgotten
When the devil has convinced them that they're no longer wanted
When he's blinded their eyes from seeing the hope of light
When their strength is drained and unable to get in the fight
I've had victory on the mountain, but the valley is nothing but distress.
Lord it's you I need. I need some hope in my darkness
I call out to the only One who can reach into an unreachable place
I know I can find peace if I could just find your face
Lord I need you to speak...
To every person who thought that nobody cares
To every tired soul, bearing weights too heavy to bear
To those longing to knock but cannot find the door
To those who seek a way out and cannot take any more
Lift up your face, look beyond the valley
The sun may have set behind you but it's not your finale
There's a God who creates out of the depths of your chaos
Lift up your head, the Son rises to call us
"Let there be light..."
Lord, please, speak light into this darkness.
“Conquer men by your gentle kindness, and make zealous men wonder at your goodness. Put the lover of justice to shame by your compassion."
--St Isaac the Syrian