AJ02 said:
But even with his attacker, he kept going back. Why???
And did the trauma cause him to basically "turn gay?" I was always told "born that way". So.....
We binged it so it all ran together for me, but I think it's summed up as follows...
1) He's an entertainer, hell a stand-up comic to make it worse, so he naturally has that craving for attention and approval. He's willing to do and put up with whatever it takes to get approval and attention, even from audiences who don't want him in their bar.
2) His attacker was dangling a pretty big enticement to stick around (the job in the entertainment industry), and
3) Even when the attention is a net negative and causes him harm, its still attention
from someone. In his warped view that warped love is the only love he's being shown by the world.
But maybe someone else can explain his mindset better than me.
And...
no, I don't think the trauma caused him to turn gay, it just maybe forced him to realize that maybe part of him was attracted to other men, which likely made his feelings toward his rapist even more confused